By It’s funny really. Here I am sitting in Chiang Mai, Thailand, a city I never thought I would see again. When I fist came to this city 5ish years ago, I was told that the experiences that would come would change me in ways I’d never thought possible. Well, I’ve been to Thailand, home and back again and though I was told the same thing about this trip, I still don’t see it.
Sure, maybe it’s because I’m still in SEA, still too close to all the experiences that are supposed to bring about these massive changes of my being, but I don’t feel any different. Sure maybe I may look a bit different, but that’s what happens in fair-skinned person vs. THE SUN! But really now. Maybe it won’t be me who notices, maybe it’ll be my friends or my family at home, who have to listen to me talk and talk over and over about the things that have happened here.
Sometimes I wonder if people are too worried about change. Yes, I’m sure it’s almost impossible to go through an experience like this one and not come out changed in one way or another, but it doesn’t have to be the huge, monumental, life altering change that is ‘expected’. Maybe, just maybe, it’s in the smaller, seemingly indiscernible changes that end up making the difference.